UNDERNEATH A BOOK, AN OLD PLAQUE WITH PHOTO – ROXANNE CARDONA

For the photo, you asked me to smile.
I smiled. Lips tight, lipstick ruddled. 
Make-upped to cover the blue, 
the blackened wound seeded inside me. 
By you, S. Photographer. Parent leader.
You bear-trapped me in false tales, 
signed petitions, you authored. 
Despite duplicity. I grinned.
Eviscerated, gored. Behind me, 
a bulletin board nailed with paper bits 
of a vanishing school career. 
You were a whirl of forgiveness
at the photo shoot— 
Turn to the right, 
nice. Look at me. 
Smile. Yes.
You look beau-ti-ful. 
And what did you gain, from all your fussing? 
A better school? Attention? What?
I need your answer. 
Why the turn around? Suddenly?
The plaque says, Best Teacher, 
Best Principal in the Universe
My face floating above your words. 

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Tonight, it pours, rain invisible 
on my window, but it beats, beats. 
Pollen rot along the ledge. 
Leaves bruised and fallen still cling 
to my glass. Another storm 
rolls down the east coast.

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